Saturday, November 20, 2010

~Journal entry from 11/8/10~

Jesus, You are worthy!

I feel like tonight I have had a revelation. That tonight, I've realized my heart was NOT all Yours. My heart has been so caught up in a relationship that will probably never happen. Tonight You have laid three verses on my heart, some of which have been on my heart for a while.

He has made everything beautiful in its time. Ecclesiastes 3:11a

This verse has been on my heart since this summer. There's just something about realizing that God has made EVERYTHING beautiful (even me!) and that it is all made in God's perfect timing. It's like this verse has been on my heart for this long, but tonight I truly got it. God wants my heart to be all His.

Let the king be enthralled by your beauty; honor him, for he is your lord. Psalm 45:11

Enthralled---to captivate. The GOD of this universe is captivated by MY beauty. Who in the world could say they are legitimately CAPTIVATED by someones beauty? Nobody but God could ever do that. Honor Him. I must honor Jesus. I need to honor Jesus for He loves me. I need to surrender all aspects of my life to Jesus.

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13

Brandi, that doesn't mean you seek Jesus on one side and pursue someone who doesn't give you the light of day on the other side. All of your heart, that means every little tiny cell must be all His. Nothing left to sacrifice. When my heart is in the right place, God will provide me with who He has planned in His perfect timing. God doesn't want me to be so wrapped up in facebook chatting with someone that I forget who He is in the process. God wants me for Him, no one else but ALL His. I believe that God has called me to be ALL His right now. No distractions, no road blocks, but every part of my being to be surrendered completely to Him.

Jesus, You think I am beautiful, You love me unconditionally, and You are jealous for me. Why has it taken me so long to figure this out? I'm not sure, but I'm so thankful that I have figured it out now. How blessed I am to be able to call you my Savior! Jesus, I'm so thankful for this revelation tonight.

In Christ,
Brandi :)

1 comment:

  1. Wow Brandi-I worked on beauty and self image all summer and it clicked. But now being back at Toledo, its been a struggle I have dealt with daily. and it bothers me so much. this really spoke to my heart. thank you